The title makes me think of Bill Murray in "What about Bob?" - "Baby steps to get on the elevator....baby steps to get on the elevator...Ah, I'm on the elevator. [Doors close] AHHHHH!" hahaha. That movie is so funny. "I'm saaailing. I'm saaailing." OK, I'll stop. =)
Well...after YEARS of refusing to join in on the blogging world (other than being the occasional lurker - ok, ok, a regular lurker) - I have officially become a blog owner. Now, usually, when you become an owner there is much JOY and CELEBRATION - like when I became an owner of my first car, my condo, my sweet yorkie (that ownership was quickly transferred to my mom - long story short she brainwashed my dog), my Seven jeans (it was a glorious day! haha). But owning this blog - mmmmmm not so much joy and excitement! Yet. BUT, I'm believing God for it. =)
Let me explain my hesistation to owning a blog, and my reasons for refusal for so long. Here is my rationale:
Reason #1 - I am NOT a writer!!
I am SO NOT that person that can just sit down at a computer or open up a page of my journal and watch the words just jump onto the screen/page. Nope. Not even close to me. Me? Me is, staring at the computer screen. Staring some more. Type a sentence out. Stare at sentence. Ummm...nope not exactly what I want to say. Backspace, backspace, backspace. REPEAT. About 30 minutes later, I may have a few sentences completed. haha. It just doesn't flow fluidly for me on paper/screen.
I am a TALKER! I am so much more of a "let's grab dinner and talk" kind of gal! I love to "meet" with people and ENGAGE in conversation. I love sharing life, laughing, being silly, talking about our weeks, what we are learning from God, what we are struggling with. I want to be able to see your face, read your expressions, hear your voice, observe your body language - all those help me to really know someone. It allows me to get a baseline of what a person's "fine" is and helps me discern when something is off and not "fine". It's quite a fun gift - although my friends might tell you otherwise! (on a side note, it does come in handy when playing mafia). So, I have hard time, just sitting down and writing out my thoughts/feelings when I would MUCH rather do it sitting down with you all over coffee or dinner. Any takers? =)
WHAT I NEED FROM YOU! I promise I will try and sit down with Mr. Computer and share my thoughts, feelings, observations....BUT....only if all 2 or my readers promise to respond with comments so we can actually engage in conversation! Deal? (this the part where you say "deal!"). Sweet! Ya'll rock!
Reason #2 - I need to be able to be animated and expressive when I share! My vocabulary is WAY too limited to share EVERYTHING I would want to say to you with just words alone.
Because of my el
ementary vocabulary skills - I tend to be ALOT more animated when I share or tell a story. I jump up and down, squeal, pump fists, clap, make faces, use props, hand gestures (just this last week I had an "accidental boob graze" (from The Holiday in case you were wondering) at church of all places because I was flapping my hands around while I was telling a story! sooo embarrasing.
Sooo, I tell you all this ahead of time, because in my time of blog lurking I have come across some...how can I say it..."gifted and talented" blogs. You know the ones - where each and every blog post is so perfectly and eloquently written. Each word chosen with such precision and excellence by the author to paint a picture of absolute beauty on their blog page. Ummmmmm.....yeah....that kind of stuff WILL NOT go on here! haha. Seriously!!
SO BE WARNED! You will find that on this blog I write exactly like I would talk. You will see LOTS of exclamation points when I am excited or fired up about something, words drawn out for dramatic effect soooooooo get used to it, words in caps or bolded when I really want to stress something, and "...." when I am pausing (again maybe for dramatic effect - haha, what does that say about me?).
Reason # 3: Keeping up with a blog can become so time-consuming!!
I am going to be up-front with you from the beginning - I will NOT be updating this blog daily! There are some people I know who do, and I love you for it! But not me! Weekly updates? Maybe. But I make no promises! I will share with you all as I am able. I plan to be very cautious to not let this blog become consuming! If it even so much as hints at interfering with my relationship with the Lord - I will shut this puppy down right here! =)
Well....look at me! I have just about finished my FIRST blog entry ever....and it didn't kill me! wheeew! It was touch-and-go there for a bit! haha. Thank you to all 2 of you that are reading my blog - bless your hearts that you have to put up with my crazy, scattered thoughts! =) I look forward to blog journeying with you all!
Peace out!